A Teal Sister's Story - Pieces of Me, Perfectly Imperfect

I have know Kimberly Simmons-Emory for over 10 years. She is a fellow ovarian cancer survivor and amazing advocate. We met in person in 2017 and I knew she had a strong faith, loved her family and  generously gave of herself supporting other women through the Georgia Ovarian Cancer Alliance.  Recently, she published her memoir, Pieces of Me Perfectly Imperfect .

 

In her book, she shares details about her adoption, how she met her husband, found and met her sisters and faced the loss of people she loved. She poignantly shared what it felt like to be diagnosed with ovarian cancer at a young age and the friendships she formed with fellow survivors as a cancer survivor.  She highlighted her friendship with Benita, an ovarian cancer survivor. I smiled to myself as I read that section because I was blessed to have met Benita in person during a visit to Atlanta for a survivorship conference.  Kimberly did a marvelous job describing the caring Benita I knew.

I don't often read a book and underline sentences that touch me but if you picked up my autographed copy of the book you will find many underlined sections.  I hope these quotes will entice you to read  Pieces of Me Perfectly Imperfect.

"The requirement to love, protect, and guide is for the adoptive parents, other family members have a choice. In my case, I cannot recall being recognized as the "adopted" daughter ; I was Dot and Mitchell's daughter."

"We have well played tunes in our heart that make us dance to the beat, but we are occasionally interrupted because life plays its own songs."

"Sometimes we have been too hard on ourselves...We decline to see ourselves through God's eyes ...God abstracts the good, bad and ugly parts of our lives and renders every part good. "

"Change can not be controlled, but holding on to control can be changed."

"Love yields gratitude and forgiveness."

So you see this book was more than just Kim's story it offered glimpses of her faith, thoughts, emotions and advice. You will find the broken pieces of her life as well as the joys. You will see challenges, support and love. At the the back of the book you will find the  Treasured Traditions section, a place where Kimberly shares family recipes. I can't wait to try Thelma's Glorious Lemon Pound Cake.

On the book's website , Kimberly writes "I pray you will reevaluate those moments that crushed you and find beauty, courage, strength, and peace within the pieces". I hope everyone, not just cancer survivors will read this book and find the value in it that I did. 

Happy Birthday Kim and thank you for sharing yourself with all of us. 

Every Day is a Blessing!

Dee

A Powerful Memoir - Between Two Kingdoms

The first time I read the writings of  Suleika Jaouad was in her the NY Times column  "Life Interrupted" . She wrote about her leukemia diagnosis and treatments.  In 2022, I shared in this blog a piece Suleika wrote for Nancy's List ( https://nancyslist.org/). That post mentioned her best selling memoir, Between Two Kingdoms , A Memoir of a Life Interrupted.  Back then I added it to my Goodreads "Want to Read" list.

A few weeks ago while browsing a bookstore in Princeton, I saw the book, bought it and started reading it.

In the first few chapters I got to know more about Suleika's family and background. She attended Princeton University, right across the street from the Labyrinth bookstore where I purchased her book. As I read further along I started to dog ear the pages. I tend to do that with books I own so I can come back and reread or share the words. As you can see, I frequently dog eared pages in this book. 

 

Suleika's story as a young cancer patient and survivor is a powerful one. She found the perfect words to describe how she felt both physically and emotionally from diagnosis , through the various treatments and as a survivor. We are thrown into a system we know nothing about so we try to learn as much as we can. We are fatigued from treatments yet we want to still "do" things.   I remember feeling how life went on for others while I couldn't get out of bed. Or that others were annoyed over someone cutting the line at the food store while I wished I could get out there to the food store. Suleika stated is as - " The world is moving forward and I am stuck." So many times as I read the book I thought to myself - " I felt that way" even though my diagnosis was different and I was diagnosed at an older age. 

" To be a patient is to relinquish control- to your medical team and their decisions, to your body and its unscheduled breakdowns. Caregivers have a similar fate." The way in which Suleika described how her diagnosis, treatment and survivorship  affected her mother, father, brother (who provided the bone marrow for her transplant) and boyfriend was especially poignant. We survivors experience the disease, tests, treatments alone - yet our family is equally affected both emotionally and physically.    

Suleika described feelings of loss - facing infertility due to chemotherapy and a bone marrow transplant. She shared the decision and the process to harvest her eggs. She was like so many young women diagnosed with ovarian cancer I have spoke who face infertility.

Especially moving was Suleika's description of the relationships that developed with other young adult  patients, in particular those who died because of their disease. " I think of how the Taj (MAHAL) embodies both love and grief. So did my friendship with Melissa . In life, I'm realizing, you don't get one without the other. "  I understand that so well with the loss of friendships that developed only because we were Teal sisters. I still miss and think about Rita Kay, Carole, Pamela, and so many more.

Suleika faced what so many of cancer patients do regarding being told we are NED ( No Evidence of Disease) and the fear of recurrence.  " The nagging voice in my head that whispered: Don't get too comfortable because one day I'm coming back".

I loved how Suleika learned to drive and took a cross country trip with her dog, Oscar,  to visit strangers who wrote her after reading her NYT column. I couldn't stop reading about each stop and the people - planned and unplanned - she met along the way . "May I be awake enough to notice when love appears and bold enough to pursue it withoug knowing where it will lead." 

As I read Suleika's website I learned she began painting while in the hospital and continues to paint. I started painting too when I in chemotherapy. She is having an art exhibit at the ART yard June 22 - September 22, 2024 in Frenchtown NJ. I regret having waited so long to read this book but I will make a point of going to see her art work. 

 This book  is a keeper and I highly recommend it. 

Thank you Suleika Jaouad for sharing your experience with all of us.

Dee

Every Day is a Blessing!